HEART BROKEN

I have never,ever, ever believe that this thing would happen. Maybe i'm too naive, maybe i'm too supid, maybe i underestimated him, maybe i misunderstood him, MAYBE I WAS LIVING IN MY OWN VULNERABLE FAIRYTALE. Why is this happening? I should have expected it, shouldnt i, huh? God.......! I feel so, so, so bad.
Now i believe in those tv shows. I really hope he'll stop treating me like this-like the way he used to-cause it'll make me misunderstand and it'llmake me believe that nothing has changed. I'm like '' shut the f up, perle''........forthe whole day at church, i'm repeating and shouting to myself. I AM JUST SO NAIVE.