oh, crap.

Wow. I never expect it to come so soon. I mean, everything was so good and all. It felt so unreal, so impossible. Sigh. What's done was done. There's no way back. I gotta move on right?

I've been living in misery for 3 days. 3 days...it feels like eternity. I'm like an empty shell, a walking dead. It's like i don't know what's the aim of my life anymore. I went to sleep thinking bout it, and the first thing that popped into my head when i wake up is him. I spent like, twenty four seven thinking bout it. I cant help it, you know. It's funny how a guy could make you do. One second, they tell you how much they love you blahblahblah BULLSHITS and the next second, it's like nothing has happened before. Wth? I seriously don't know how to carry on with my life. Like, how???? I don't have a clue. I really don't. Life goes on. I know. I gotta forget about everything, get the f-ing hell over him and move on. I know, I know. But the problem is, i don't know how. It's like, i have a mental block, i don't know what to do with my life. All those memories kept coming back to me, my tears kept threatening to fall. And i cant do anything except holding on to that tiny little thread of sanity that's left of me.

Argh. I cant believe im this wrecked. Because of a guy, man. Wth. So not worth it. But what to do? The brain is not cooperating with me. I know it's a matter of time. But how long? How freaking long? Eurgh. This is so sick.

And the heart... I don't know what i could do with it. All the scars are open and it's broken into million of pieces. I don't think there's any way in this whole wide world that will cure a broken heart. Is there? Sigh. I am SO wrecked. So, so wrecked :(

Mend my heart! Anyone?

Forget and Move on, girl. It's the only way.